wilchan-

2009-03-17T02:25:00.003+08:00

*cough cough*

can feel all the dust filling up this space. haha! guess too long never blog alr. so better start blogging soon :)

i think i shall do a more detailed on tmr. after i've sort out the photos! :D

meanwhile. take a look at this!

I've decided to become a 'princess' for a night. HAHA

2008-09-14T05:39:00.002+08:00

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind

I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep

And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense for the past 1 1/2 years, 547days, 13140hrs, 788400 minutes and 47304000 seconds.

i love you

2008-08-13T00:07:00.005+08:00

Hui Zi aka slacking partner =)

A good friend just left Singapore to study in netherlands for 5months. Seeing her off made me fell quite sad. But still! hope she'll have a safe trip and enjoy her stay during her time there!

On a lighter note, happy 1 year and 5months baby. many more months will come! <3<3<3

wil-

2008-08-10T14:07:00.005+08:00

NDP finally come to an end yesterday. For the past 4months, all the wednesday and thursday trainings, although tiring, never once failed to make me smile. All the silly jokes we had, the 'gayish' acts all still rings soundly in my mind. It's quite upsetting that I wouldn't be able to see them that often anymore now =(

But then again, NDP '08 have been a great success! congrats everyone! and NDP would not have been half as fun without you guys. Carys, Hui Zi, Alan, Pnelope, Penny, May, May(again! not the same one la :P ) , Mindy, Cin, Kelvin, Fu liang, Chris, Eddie, Yue Shan, Li Fen etc.... AND not to forget, BESSIE!!! :D

Remember! NDP may have ended, but our friendship is still gonna stay! :D

Thanks! for everything...

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PICTURES!!!

B1!!!!

BABY & ME! <3<3

SHINE FOR SINGAPORE~~~

WOW! WOW! WOW!

singing a duet with hui zi. I'm freaking singing the female part :P

I can't wait for my food, so i've decided to have victor for appetizer. haha!

~L-O-V-E~

2008-07-24T03:09:00.003+08:00

Always in the wrong and never right.

it sucks having to feel this way

2008-07-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

BOO!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHEEEEEELEEEE CHAN!!!

I hope you loved the cute cupcakes and of course ur present. hehehehehe.

ilu, CARYS

2008-06-30T01:02:00.004+08:00

NDP on sat is fun!! =))

But something bad happened! I fell during our running in to our 1st formation. Abrasions starts to show on my left hand and right knee, blood starts to flow and drench my shorts red. The wounds starts burning but i held on and finished the performance.

okay. the paragraph above is purely fiction. I just had slight abrasions. That's all. haha! But the concern that i got from my group made me smiled right from the heart. From hui zi who accompanied me to wash and bandage my wound, May who called to asked about my condition, Bessie who walked all the way from the platform to the medic room to check on me and all the other people's concern words, they really made me feel so touched! thanks people :)

And! we got the costume for the our performance. It comes with a green hat. ah!!! i don't wanna DAI LU MAO! :(

lastly before i sign off, i'm damn screwed! Final Theory Test is in 14hrs time and i've not read a single page of the FTT book. DIE DIE DIE! haha

wil-

*I'm pissed at you

2008-06-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

Just a passing shadow.

Come what may, we'll always be strong, righteous and free.
Indeed.

2008-06-02T10:09:00.002+08:00

It've been 2 long weeks since i've last seen my baby. Trust me, it's really 2 longggggggggggggggggg week. I miss everything about her. Seeing her silly smile, her silly jokes and the silly her.

I MISS HER LOTS, much much more than how you think i miss her :(

2008-05-22T09:30:00.003+08:00

You've been with me for the last don't know how many years ago. You'll always there, for my joys and sorrows. I used not to mind having you around, until recently. I realise you'll actually very irritating, always making me feel low and dejected. I feel ashamed just being shown in public with you. So, although we've been together for so damn long, I've made up my mind to get you out of my life.

So goodbye, And I hate you..............MY FATS!!!

HAHAHAHA! okay i know i'm damn random. but i'm bored :D

2008-05-18T16:47:00.001+08:00

i'm not one who can express myself well. But i never meant to disappoint anyone with my words.

wil-

*i'm missing =(

2008-05-12T23:04:00.004+08:00

12.5.08

today marks the 14th month of carys and me being today. thinking back, time really flies. It seem like yesterday was the day when we just got together and I remember vividly how i felt i was the happiest guy on earth on that very special day. For the past 397 days, you gave me tons of joys and sorrow, from the day we first held hands together, the time you first said 'i love you' to me ( my heart really melted!! ) , and even the first time we quarrelled, this are things that i'll never trade for everything in the world. i look forward to even more memorable days with you baby.

i love you baby. And happy 14th month <3

2008-05-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

i think i'm losing it.

=(

2008-04-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wished i'm a woman instead simply because i can get upset for small little things and people will not think much about it.

=)

2008-03-30T00:21:00.002+08:00

since i'm a kid, i never get things my own way. ever since, it has been like this in every phase of my life till now. it never use to bother me until now. i realise i'm actually feeling sour over it. i noticed the people around me gets what they want most of the time. and me? i'll be the one who give people what they want most of the time. i find this very tiring. i yearn to be one who can get things my way, i repeat, MY WAY. but well, i guess i never will, at least not in the near future.

yeah, i'm feeling sore now.

2008-03-18T02:11:00.002+08:00

I'm getting tired. Matters hidden inside the heart, with no one to turn to, talk to.

this is bad...

2008-02-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

times...

when dearest seems further and further away,
when vision becomes blurry,
when mindset turns unstable,
when i don't know what to do.

2008-02-25T03:40:00.002+08:00

i don't know how the future will turn out to be,
i don't know how long we'll be able to last,
and i don't know if all the happiness is going to last,

the only thing i know is that even if we'll gonna only be together for another 10 years, 5years, 3months, 1 day, 1 minute, or 1 second, i'm still gonna hold on to you until the very last moment. And that's simply because i know i'm still holding on to the loveliest woman on earth. But no matter what it may turn out to be, i want you to be happy. Coz that's what matters the most.

i love you.

2008-01-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

YAY NEW BLOGSKIN WAHAHHAHA

2008-01-27T00:36:00.000+08:00

FD musical today is great. Though the entire show isn't exactly hyped, it really touched me to see how much my ex-chingay participant have grown, especially fann. I remembered her as a really talented but shy and quiet girl when i first saw her and now there she is being so out spoken and showcasting her talents to the audience. I'm proud of you! :D and of course, the rest of the peeps like freddie, brian, lynn, vivien, and everyone else :)

And, I've just finish watching 'the lake house' on DVD. I can't believe i nearly teared watching it. What a show! This movie really showed what true love is.

watch the movie and love it =)))

2008-01-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

school have start for about a week now, but i'm still in my holiday mood. stupid projects, all coming up one by one. don't even know how to get it done. LOL. in short, i LOVE school.... AS IF! haha!

School aside, i've been listening to this high school musical song daily now. I think it's a really nice song. everyone out there, cherish your relationship. It's fate that brought 2 people together, but there's only one chance to make it right. So, make it right :D

Everyday

Once in a lifetime
means there’s no second chance
so I believe that you and me
should grab it while we can

Make it last forever
and never give it back
It’s our turn, and I’m loving where we’re at
Because this moment’s really all we have

Everyday
of our lives,
Wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we’re young
and keep the faith

Everyday
From right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand
together we will celebrate,
celebrate

* you know i love you <3

2008-01-02T02:17:00.001+08:00

wow! 2007 has gone in a breeze and here comes 2008. well well well, time really flies. haha

2007 have been quite a year for me. I've joined chingay and NDP, which i get to know good bunch of friends. And of course, i've hell lots of fun with them around =)

Also, i've to deal with disappointment in my studies. I failed a subject and have to be seperated from all my classmates and be alone all of a sudden. this a a great setback for me as i've never been in this situation before. All my life, i'm able to breeze through my studies and get on normally and it made me lost my direction in life and i got into some kind of 'depression' period. however, like they always say 'you grow through setback' . Through this setback, i've learnt that life may not be smooth-sailing all the time, and what matter most is that you'll able to adapt to it and grow and improve as an individual through it. =)

AND OF COURSE, i've got to know the dearest girl that's always there for me, go through all joy and sorrows together. though we squabble like almost all the time(HAHA! just kidding!), i just enjoy every single moment with her. just being with her will make my heart melt. thanks for everything baby! i love you <3

i know i'm lazy to make such a summarised conclusion to my year 2007. But, what's important is not to look back to the past, but look ahead of the future right? HAHA!

alright, time to sleep. i've school tmr =( HAPPY 2o08 everyone!!! :D

wil-

2007-12-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

People say, he song you listen to reflects on how you'll feeling at the moment of time. I never put much thought on it until recently. This is definately true. I realised i'll delibrately forward my mp3 to happy song when i'm in joy and to sad songs when i'm feeling down. I guess the reason is that we tend to relate what happen or how we feel to the lyrics of the lyrics. If that's really the case, music can really be said to be a intergal part of everyone's life. right?

Talk about the power of music huh? HAHA!

2007-11-27T02:26:00.000+08:00

welcome to my life - simple plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt,
to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

=)

2007-11-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's wrong with me, but the blogging bug just came coming recently. HAHA! i blog like almost everyday :P

life has been a roller coaster for me recently, all the highs and lows coming all at the same time. however, just a short meetup with 'dearest' will make me forget everything and realise things aren't that bad actually =)

you know how important you are =)))

wil-

2007-11-22T17:39:00.000+08:00

i've realised something important. The greater effort you put in, the bigger the disappoinment/agony.

moral of the statement=> give out only as much as you'll given, to avoid disappointment =)

wil-

2007-11-21T23:07:00.001+08:00

Almost all human beings are self-centered. We always do things with the word 'I' in our mind before anything else comes in, thus making this such a selfish world. The minority of the group, the 'pures', will be the ones always getting taken advantage of over time, turned to be a self-centered person too, after he/she can't take it anymore.

The same goes for most couples too. They still normally think for themselves 1st before their partner. If everyone is really selfless towards their partner, they wouldn't be quarrels anymore right? but still, there's no point in blaming one another for that. it's just human nature for one to be selfish and protective of oneself.

sadist world huh? HAHA!

2007-11-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

yay! today is the 12th!!! :D

12th is always a special day to me. it marks the day of the month where i got together with the dearest person i had since birth. Though it's only been 8 months since we first got together, we've been through alot, and it've already became a part of my life. let's continue having more beautiful memories between the both of us.

i love you baby :)

wil-

2007-11-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

there may be times I...

quarrel with you over small little things
fight with you for almost over nothing
get pissed off at you
don't feel like talking to you
thought to myself why can't you just give in
teared when you really made me feel like i'm totally nothing to you

but at the end of the day, you'll still the girl i love most. nothing can take that away =)

i love you baby <3

2007-11-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

am i always wrong?

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i guess i am

2007-10-25T20:56:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since i post. time to do some updating :D

School have started for like 4 days now. It's not really fun, but at least it's not as bad as i thought it will be. And it's really hard to adjust being all alone for every lesson. =( but well, i'll make new friends i guess. haha! and some of the teachers are really crappy. there's this teacher who spend like 45mins during his first lecture talking about his achievement and his family. OMG! he even show us his family photos and starts introducing them. what a teacher! HAHA!

oh yah! the other day when i'm eating ice-cream, i stared at it and an idea came to my mind. i made my own cherry hill condo!!! ( for those who didn't know, it's a condominium in singapore)

THEREFORE.....

TATA~~~

(notice the cherry is gone? it's not hidden by the ice cream. somebody ate it up. HAHA! :P)

and yeah, i took japanese as my CDS this semester. i didn't know how i end up taking that. and i've realise i took up every language CDS in TP!!! HAHA! alright, that's only two, french and japanese, but it's still everything mah :D

alright. nothing much to say anymore. cheers everyone :D

wil-

2007-10-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

you know what?

TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC. you should just go eat shit and die!!!

argh!!!!

2007-10-09T19:48:00.001+08:00

I'm stressed. Out of a sudden, i've suddenly lost my direction in life. For the past 2years, all i've think is get to aerospace engineering through my course. but i just have to screw it up myself by not doing well enough and got into some process automation shit instead. i'm not saying it's not good, but i just lost all that i've initially planned. And worse, i've to fail my Emaths3 and have the prospect of wasting another one semester in TP. And i'm still feeling sore over the fact i failed as i did study for the paper. Maybe i'm really just plain stupid =(

Morale have never hit so low in my life before. I nearly just broke down(but i didn't) when i chant yestereday. And nothing seems to make me feel better. Recently, i just don't wanna give in as much to people anymore. i don't know why. maybe i'm just feeling down(and selfish) and wants to be the one on the receiving end instead. But somehow, it just wouldn't materlise. Instead, people will just tell me 'why always ask you help then you wouldn't help?' or 'ask you do things always never do' etc. But do you guys ever realise, I've a life too, i'll help whenever i can, but not when i'm not in the condition to do so. So, sorry if you think i'm being unhelpful or something.

Anyways, i've been rather unkind to the wonderful girl recently. i'm really sorry. i really cannot help it. i always felt bad everytime after i'm mean to you. i know it's the wrong time to expect so much from you. Sorry for being so petty. i promise to go back to normal. forgive me alright?

On a lighter note, i'm looking forward to friday!! yay! :D

wil-

2007-10-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

this is a stern warning willie chan. u better start blogging more interesting posts. or else..........u wouldn't wanna know the consequences. all who support me say "aye!"

okay i've said my piece
so PEACE OUT

2007-10-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

i wanna be the one...

to share your joy,
to share your sorrows,
to share your problems,
to share your worries,

and for just one simple reason...

it's because...

i love you <3

2007-09-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

Alot of things happened recently. i'm worried. i really am. but i'm gonna get through all my obstacles. i promise.

2007-09-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

i'm confused. i don't know what to do anymore. am i expecting too much? maybe i'm really always in the wrong.

i'm sorry

2007-09-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

wah! I haven been blogging for damn long. have been busy :)

For the past week. i've been working at expo for the times bookfair. it's my first time working for a fair. the supervisor is an indian guy called guna(or nagu?) haha! when i first saw him. i thought he's just a contractor until he starts to give us orders. LOL. it's a really tiring job. having to do almost everything there, but i guess i had a pretty easy job by being the enterance marshall where i just have to take count of the people coming in the fair. LOL. but it got too boring and i went around to help with the more difficult job. guess i'm really hardworking huh? HAHA! joking =)

argh! i think my results are coming out tmr~~ i'm damn afraid that i'll fail my subject once again. better go chant later for better results. though it's a little too late. anyways, i've alot of updates. but i'll let pictures do the talking. i'll post it up tmr though. cya =)

oh yah. tmr's a damn important day. i'm looking forward to it. just thinking of it makes me smile even in my heart :P

2007-08-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

i hate you. i really do.

2007-08-24T00:51:00.001+08:00

i guess exams pressure is really catching up with me now. i'm feeling lost and confused. there seem to be no one to talk to too. don't know why either. and i'm getting tired as days goes by. lol. I better stop before i get emo. HAHA!

alright. back to studies now. cya~

wil-

2007-08-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder, really wonder, if i'm just a passerby in life, someone insignificant to everyone. i think i'm just thinking too much. or am i not?

wil-

2007-08-13T03:01:00.002+08:00

haha. haven been doing much today, just playing bball and slacking around the whole day. but still, today spells an important day to me. coz it's my 5th month with carys. =)))

HAPPY 5TH month and many more my dear!!! thanks for everything for the past few months. i really appreciate all the time we spend together. all the ups and downs. having you really makes my life filled with laughters and joy. remember that no matter what happens, i'll always be there for you my love =)

wil-

2007-08-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

angeline and me =)

Penny and me =) btw, my left hand posture looks kinda wrong. HAHA!

SINGA CITY H4 , THE DREAM LIVES ON =)

today marks singapore's 42th birthday, and also my first time participating NDP. we had alot of fun today. my group members are really a fun batch of people to be with. they really brought me tons of laughters today. i'm gonna miss them big time. HAHA! thanks guys, thanks for everything. =)

2007-08-06T00:37:00.001+08:00

ndp's coming to a end soon. but i don't know if i'll be glad or upset that it's coming to a end. haha. i'll think about it when thursday comes then :P

smiles everyone! :D

wil-

2007-08-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

nothing has been going well for me recently. guess i'm just going through a bad patch in life. it gets really quite affecting sometimes. but well, life still have to go on anyways =)

today is the birthday of one of my really good friend yong huat. thinking about him, i really feel kinda bad. i haven been meeting him for damn long(2months i think) due to various reason, but mainly studies. our time table clashes with each other since the start of this semester and we can't meet up as often anymore. however, he still is, and forever a good friend. happy 18th birthday my friend =)

wil-
*show me how much you love me~~~

2007-07-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

i'm upset, but i don't why i'm so. all i want is just someone to talk me, crap or whatsoever, to make me laugh and make me realise that i'm actually not that upset. but where's that someone? i can't help but feel being alone at times.

i'm not trying to be emo, i don't know why i wrote this post this. just some random rubbish =X

2007-07-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

in life,

we have so many 'if only...' in life.

But sadly,

they usually don't materlise =(

2007-07-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

i tried, i really did, but i just didn't know what's wrong. you told me once, i became bad tempered and flare up easily nowadays. so, i tried not to be like that, as i really think i should change that. Do you know, how i felt at the moment of time, when i see the msg you sent me about me giving you attitude by hunging up on you? when i swear that it's due to connection problem( or whatever it is). and what's worse, i tried to explain to you i did not hang up on you, but your reply just shows me that you do not trust me. the world just came crushing down on me at that moment. i really don't know what to say. am i the reason for you to react this way? or did you changed too? putting yourself in my shoe, do you know how i feel whenever i'm down, i'll just give you a ring and talk to you, but somehow the conversation turn out to be you talking. i know it may be selfish of me, but i just want to be the center of attention at that point of time, all i need is someone to listen to my rants/complains, but are you listening? =( but i never once blame you, as i may be the one who triggered this start to this whole situation.

it just doesn't feels good to be alone, especially when you'll feeling down and you realise there's no one there to listen.

2007-07-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

am i just being paranoid? i don't know.

i don't know why i'm blogging this anyways. just being random. anyways. i'm listening to this ndp song called 'will you' and i like the lyrics for the chrous parts. it's just meaningful to me. =)

So...Will you swim the current?
Will you scale new height?
Will you make it happen
Will you let your dreams take flight?
And...Will you make the difference?
Will you seize the day?
Will you live each moment,
Will you dare to find new ways?~~~

2007-07-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

alright. this post is gonna be quite long. since i'm gonna blog about my 18th birthday :D

let's start on what happened on friday. i went to yvonne's house to stay over with li ting, jia wei and sheng long. wah. yvonne ar. talk and talk on the phone. PANG SEH QUEEN! HAHA. still dare to say i'm always on the phone. :P haha. nevertheless. we had alot of fun just crapping around. and i think i really had a good talk with sheng long that day. it's actually quite nice talking to him :P and oh yah! yvonne got me and jia wei and his dad a cake. thanks. :D

going on to saturday. we( the people who went for the stayover) went to meet up with some of our group member to have lunch together to celebrate my birthday at manhattan fish market. well. though i didn't eat much , but i still appreciate the peeps for being there, even if we didn't really talk :)

anyways. after lunch, we set off to TSC for ndp. HAHA. we reached there damn late. we'll supposed to reach at 3pm but we reached at 3.50pm? LOL. anyways. yvonne and i rushed to changed our clothes and went to take the 1st bus ( since we'll involved in the pre-show parade). then bla bla bla, we started the pre-show parade. something embarrassing happened. yvonne and eugena pang seh me!! we'll suppose to leave for the exit after walking down the stairway. but they didn't tell me and went off without me. i didn't notice and just stayed there and smile. and the kids there just started laughing at me. argh! HAHA. after that, the usual performing and all. overall , it's a fun day today :)

alright. to the actual day on my birthday(15th july). it's really a day of suprise and joy :D in the morning, carys called me and ask me to meet her at paya lebar first before meeting the rest of the peeps for lunch. i suspected that she's gonna give me a suprise already. but what she did really caught me by suprise. i went to bath to get ready to meet her. after i came out, i saw my auntie's maid coming in my house, asking me for some cd from my room. puzzled, i went to my home and i saw carys right in front of me!!! OH MY!! she really got me damn shocked that i did some weird actions :P she then present me with the tiramisu cake she made for me( trust me, it's damn delicious) and her present for me, which includes a wallet , a topman shirt and ballons? haha. but i really loved all the presents she gave me. thanks <3

after that. we went to meet the rest of the peeps at city hall for lunch at cafe cartel. those present are stella, may, gina, stephaine, penny, bryant and darrell. penny and bryant got me snowman(coz they say i'm 'cold'? HAHA) and stephaine and the rest got me a wallet. thanks for the presents :D after that, we had our meal and eat the tiramisu cake carys made. Though it's just a short 2hrs meal. i really enjoyed myself. after that, everyone went their own way after that. and carys and i head to my house to keep the remaining of the cake. after that, bla bla bla, went home to eat dinner that my mum cooked for me and that sorta sums up my birthday. :D

anyways. thanks everyone, for the wishes, presents. and thanks for all the suprises and present carys , i really love them as much as i love you :P opps!

haha. i didn't lie right, this is really quite a long post eh? HAHA. cya peeps

wil-

* I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE CARYS! :D

2007-07-12T23:53:00.001+08:00

everyone seems to be going through a bad period of time now. somehow, it has affected me. or am i going through a bad period of time too in the first place?

the world seem to get more and more dull as the days went past =(

2007-07-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

lying on my bed yesterday night and unable get to sleep, i thought of this question again. have i really changed? i realised, to a certain extent, yes. but there's so much other stuff that i don't understand. and i've been thinking, am i really the one changing, or has the surrounding and people around me changed instead? or to be more specific, i think some of the people i knew have changed. maybe only i feel it. thus, sometimes, i feel that i can't just talk freely to them as i did in the past. to them, they just thought i've changed. however, did you realised you the one who have changed in the 1st place? maybe into someone i don't know really know now. argh! this post is damn confusing, i'm confused myself too. take it that i'm talking nonsense now. =)

wil-

2007-07-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

'you've changed drastically'

hearing this 5 words, really just struck me at the moment. well, i know i've changed, but drastically? i don't know. ever since chingay, i've come to realise, i'm sicked of being taken advantage of, being the one giving in. all these make me more self-centered nowadays. But i didn't know i'll really change so much because of that. are the more hidden reasons that i didn't know about? i want a answer =(

anyways. there's another problem, i've really no motivation in going ndp. i don't know why, i've really tried not to be like this and be more positive about it, but something is just stopping me and i can't explain it.

i admit, i wanna change myself, but never in the context of changing in a negative way. i meant it. i just wanna be a better person. that's all =(

wil-

2007-07-03T22:46:00.001+08:00

My birthday is in 12 days time!!!
*hint hint* (to everyone!!!) hahaha

2007-07-02T23:36:00.001+08:00

i think jessica is sweet
and xueyun is pretty
and penny is cute!!!
HAHAHHAHHA

2007-06-30T03:40:00.000+08:00

我可以
陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

=)

chance upon this lyric of the song '我可以' and i found it quite nice.

2007-06-30T03:20:00.000+08:00

isn't it ironic? when you know that you've made a mistake, and told yourself not to do it ever again. but somehow, when the same situation comes again, you forgot all about not repeating the mistake and end up upsetting someone. what's wrong with me? but trust me. i'll try. i really will. sorry.

on a lighter note, went for MILKRUN briefing today. and i got my goodies bag and all. but i do not have my MILKRUN shirt. ran out of stock. i should have reach earlier so i can get the shirt =X haha. joking. oh yah! something stupid happened. i threw away $4 into the dustbin!! don't ask me why did i do such a stupid thing. but i just did. OMG!!!! HAHA.

'smiles is the longest word in english, because there is a mile between the 2 s.' but i'm willing to go more than a mile if that's what will make you smile. =)

wil-

2007-06-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

first day in school was tired!! LOL. i don't know why either. i met up with my classmate to discuss some project we've to do. and after doing my part, I just end up sleeping. LOL. imagine that. but never mind, at least i've done something for my project group. =)

and after that, went for a practical test for one of my subject. and i feel damn dumb!! i actually patched up my circuit without fail, but i made a small tweeny mistake and i got stucked there for 30min!! haha. i really panicked for a moment as i didn't wanna get a zero for my test (and have a bad start to my first day of school). and furthermore, THANKS to my teacher who been so helpful to say that it's my fault that i didn't study hard for the test when i got him for help. And worse still, after he said that, he turned around and helped someone with his work. what's his problem lah. lol. Luckily that my friend spot that mistake for me and i got through the test and i think i think i got full marks for the test then. thanks =)

anyways, carys's having her mid year now. seeing her getting stressed over it and i can seem to help makes me feel kinda bad sometimes. but well, all i can do now is to chant for her to have the wisdom to do well for her papers. jia you!!! =)

wil-
*you've already become a part of me. =)

2007-06-21T16:22:00.000+08:00

Studying at coffee bean:

Taking a break hehe <3My all time favourite song HAHAHHA

This is how i mugHAHA caught candid!!!

And this is how i lost

2007-06-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

i realised i've an increase in visitors in my blog. so i've to blog more now =X

haha. Went studying today with carys at clarke quay's coffee bean. Well, studying was quite good until this irritating guy come in coffee bean. i don't know what's the problem with him. he just can't keep his mouth shut! LOL. he just have to keep going on and on and on and on...... till the extent that carys got pissed at him. in the end, we gave up studying and left coffee bean at about 5pm.

moral of this post: do not talk to much when you'll studying. you are not only affecting yourself, but others too!!

HAHA. talking rubbish now already. better stop before i go too far. till then, cya~~~ :D

wil-

2007-06-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

supper last night was thrilling!! LOL. damn funny too. but well. i just love any time spend with her :)

though we have our arguements and all sometimes. but there's no denying that deep down in my heart. you'll still the one there <3 :D

wil-

2007-06-12T01:15:00.001+08:00

My name is KAH WAI. And I am gay(dont get me wrong, i mean happy kind of gay). HAHA.

I haven't been updating my blog because my life is just so boring. Sighs. Must be because I'm such a boring person. Oh wait!! There is one particular excitement in my life. Recently, I met this guy from tpjc. Turns out to be some weirdo. He messages me once I get offline and talks to me once I get online. Like my boyfriend or something. haha. Carys says that I should stay away from him. I think I should.

I miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you.
=))))

2007-06-10T02:35:00.000+08:00

yeah! new blogskin. thanks for it. but remember to change my name back to 'willie' HAHA.

anyways. had ndp combined rehearsal today. things are kinda picking up i guess. at least i talk more to my group members now. and i definately felt less negative about joining NDP after today's training :)

alright. better go sleep now. HAHA. cya~~~

wil-
*love's beautiful with you by my side :)

2007-06-04T01:13:00.001+08:00

maybe i'm just being paranoid.

2007-05-29T20:07:00.000+08:00

How does it feel, to make the one you loved most upset/cry over you? how does it feel, when you realise you hurt the one you loved most when that's the last thing that would be on your mind?

This feeling just sucks and i'm feeling it right now =(

wil-
*i really really love you. i'm sorry

2007-05-23T04:08:00.000+08:00

it's 4.08am now and i'm still awake!!

i'm damn tired. all i've still gotta stay up till this time due to my projects. HAHA.

anyways. i'm thinking of someone in my mind now. wonder who it might be ?? =X haha. sorry for being random.

anyways. i better go catch like 2hrs of sleep before i wake up for school later. hope i'll be able to stay awake for school tmr. wish me luck :D

cya~~~

2007-05-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

Went out to study with carys, penny and bra today at habourfront. After some discussion on where to go, we finally decided on going to superdogs. Haha. I actually did abit of studying today! haha. Not really much though, but i still did. =)

After studying, which is about 6pm, we headed home. All 4 of us took the NEL and i alighted 1st with carys to send her home. Oh yah. Carys was playing my nintendo DS and she just can't seem to win. haha. It's funny seeing her being so serious about a game. =X

After that. i took 81 home, bla bla bla, and went to watch prison break!! Haha. I realised it's a damn nice show, and it's damn addictive! But what a wrong time to start watching it, when my quizes and term test are all in the coming week. Oh my!! Haha.

Everyone has their differences. nobody's perfect. when 2 people gets together, it's all about loving and accepting who he/she is. That's what it is all about. I may have argue with you and get frustrated at you at times. but deep down my heart, there's no doubt that you the one right inside. I love you for what you are. To me, you'll already the best that there is =))

I love you, forever and ever :)

2007-05-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

maybe i shouldn't care so much. if i didn't, i wouldn't have gone myself into agony that i hated. but i just can't. and that's because it just matters so much to me.

shit, i'm contradicting myself. i'm damn irritated by myself now.

wil-

2007-05-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

I came across this question, ' who's the most important person in your life now?' somewhere today. I thought about it for 1 second and someone just pop into my mind. and i smiled =))

2007-05-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

exams are coming soon. and i'm still in my freaking holiday mood!?!?!?!

haha. i'm so dead. i better find my mood to study before it's too late. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! :P

anyways. today was a simple yet sweet day spent. although i don't know how i end up so tired. but i'm still glad the day is spent this way :D

cya~~~

*you'll the one :D

2007-05-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

will you be there for me? when i need you?

2007-05-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

Wow! i'm doing a double post today! haha. amazing huh? But that's coz i can't get to sleep and i thought of something somehow.

I realise we can relate the success of a relationship with maths. In maths, we learn that,

positive + positive = positive
negative + positive = negative
positive + negative = negative

Thus, relating to the guy and girl's attitude towards the relationship as positive/negative.

positive (guy) + positive (girl) = positive relationship
negative (guy) + positive (girl) = negative relationship
positive (guy) + negative (girl) = negative relationship

From this, we can conclude a relationship does not fail or work due to only one party. Rather, it takes both hands to clap. :D

and yeah. i know i didn't include the equation of (negative + negative = positive). And for the very obvious reason. it doesn't work that way in a relationship !!!

okay. i know i may sound kidish writing this(even i think so too), but it's really true. it's always this kind of small things that slip through our mind. so, let's not forget them :)

*looking forward to saturday =))

2007-05-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

i'm physically drained. maybe it's due to all the sport activities i'm having now. haha. but i don't care. at least i'm having fun when i'm playing the sports. haha

okay. i look damn weird in this pic. haha

2007-05-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

times will come where you'll feel pressured. but remember that i'll always be here for you. you have my support in whatever you do . and i shall always be your listening ear even though i may not give you advice. but trust me, that there's always someone looking out for you all the time, and that's me :)

2007-05-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

things haven been going fine for the past day. i get frustrated easily this few days. and i think it nearly pull off some quarrels with people around me. it must have got something to do with the weather =X

i'm tired physically. all the activities i have recently are seriously draining all my energy. i need more rest!!! haha. i better start having early nights soon before i start sleeping in class. not that i don't now. :P

*you'll way up there :D

2007-05-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

resometimes i'm lost in life, i've no idea what to do, feeling totally helpless. please, lead me to the light of heavens. take my hands, and let's walk through darkness together. with you, even the darkest passage seems bright. :)

anyways. french is interesting. however, i've to take more FRENCH fries to improve on my pronouncation of the words. HAHA

j'aime carys à jamais et jamais :D

2007-05-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!!!

haha. i remember since young. i loved labour day. and only for the reason that it's a public holiday. LOL

anyways. my cousins came over this afternoon. and it's damn funny talking to them!!! haha. somehow, we talked about the topic of me hoping to get married early. and one of them told me that the only way it can be done is by being financially strong enough to be able to hold a wedding etc. or i have a shot gun marriage. and they started discussing abt how my dad will react to it. As everyone present knows that my dad's a fierce person, they start thinking out of the box by saying things like ' i think he'll be proud that you are able to achieve 'great' things', 'he'll be touched that you'll so daring' and alot other rubbish. i just started bursting out into laughters hearing that. and just then, my mum walked past us. and i pop the question to her about how my dad will react to the shotgun situation. and that's the mistake of the day. coz i think she's damn serious about it and start to reprimand me in some sort. and it totally spoil my mood. and i think she's pissed off at me. oh wells. guess there's just some jokes that you can't share with your parents.

oh yah. my 1st ever french lessons starts tmr. i'm sooo looking forward to it. haha. hope it'll turn out as interesting that i thought it is. :)

anyways. before i end my post. happy belated birthday BRA!!! welcome to 'manhood' LOL. and yeah. i'm still only 17years and 9months old. give me 3more months!!!! haha. and i'm gonna walk into a 7/11 , get a can of beer. and tell the cashier 'i'm 18 today'.

okay. i know i'm lame.

PROTECTOR OF LOVE :D

2007-04-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

Comment on this post, and I'll:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
8 - In retort, you must post this on your blog. :)

I shall update more often since my blog is like SO DEAD!!! haha. French is soo cool!! And i'm gonna start learning it. In a couple weeks time, i should able to say things like "je m'appelle WILLIECHANKAHWAI" or "je suis de singapour" or "quelle temps fait-il" or "il neige". HAHAHHA. My french is good huh??

I am a staunch protector. According to some book of names. haha. and CARYS = LOVE. how true?? haha. okay kidding.

Friendship meeting today was quite boring. But the testimonial sharing so far better and more well planned as compared to my zone's meeting. And i watched that video on sgi for the 9th time today. Carys made me sit through it although i was dying to run away from it. But time went pass faster than i expected so it wasn't so bad. Other than that, the meeting was not bad.

I LOVE MYSELF!!!!!! <33

2007-04-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

i may not be the best-est boyfriend in the world. there may be times where i made you upset, directly or indirectly, but there's no deny that you'll the one i truely love. yeah. YOU, the queen of my heart. :D

hahaha. just some random posting to keep the blog alive :)

2007-04-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

maybe it's just i'm incompetent, for not being able to work things out. i'm feeling damn shit inside now. =(

2007-04-22T11:41:00.000+08:00

ytd was my first time being an emcee for a 'major' event. however, i think i kinda screwed it up, with 6 last minute changes, being down with flu/headache at the last minute and etc etc. however, i realised i really enjoyed myself for my role in this youth friendship meeting. i admit i'll complain about alot during the process of making out the script and during rehearsal. but, i have this sense of sastifaction when the event comes to an end. afterall, i played my part in making the event a success :D and to everyone who have helped me along the way, it's really appreciated. Thanks!!

thanks for everyone who came to support, without you guys. this event wouldn't even have taken place. also, thanks, carys, for giving me the suprise. having your presence there really made my day and built up my confidence. you've just no idea how much you meant to me. and i really love the heart-shaped sweet you gave me. it's the nicest sweet i've ever taste. and you know why? coz it's given to me from you! :D

alright, time for me to rest. the headaches coming back. :(

i love my pig!! :P

2007-04-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

i'm not feeling really good these few days. maybe it's just the pressure that i'm giving myself. cheer me up someone. :(

i hope saturday will go well, and of coz, everything that i'll be doing. :D

2007-04-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

back to post. :D

ytd was a happy happy happy day!! 1st month of being together. :D

met up with carys at 2+ in toa payoh. then we went for lunch at long john. after that, she went back to school for cca while i waited at toa payoh library for her until 6+.

at the library, i started to read the eragon book that i've brought. haha. and, i got too engross with the book that i didn't realise the library is freaking cold! haha. it's only after i came out of the library to go find carys when her cca ends that i start to realise that. LOL. then i went to hold carys hand and wow!, it gives me some much warmth :P haha.

anyways. we went for dinner at this ichiban restuarant. and something funny happpened. HAHAHAHA. right carys? :D

after that. we head home and waited damn long for the bus 153. LOL. it came after 15mins i guess. on the bus, we exchange our presents for each other. and i have to say, i'm really touched by what i got from her. i'll say it's the nicest gift i've ever received. coz it's from her :D

alright, i know this post seems a little short, but well , it's because i don't wanna give full details. lazy to. haha.

gtg now. cya ! :D

*happy 1st month carys. i love you :D

2007-04-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

back to post. :)

yesterday-

woke up damn early to go to MacRitchie with the trainer to check out the location for the 28th april thingy. but well, sorta a wasted trip there to me, cuz we juz sat and talk there? haha. anyways. headed to the prata shop after that, melvin's recommendation :) breakfast there. and me, melvin , bryant, penny and may went off to clark quay, to the mind's cafe there. haha

we reached the mrt station abt 1+ . melvin they all went off 1st, while i waited for carys to come. cuz i tot she'll definately get lost if she goes there alone. but guess what? i brought her to wrong way instead. LMAO. but anyways. we still end up the correct way in the end and met up with the rest of the peeps. :P

after tat. melvin decided to go off 1st. and we headed to mind's cafe. it's great there. played alot of boardgames. and i don't seem to be able to win much. haha. but had alot of fun though :) and we left around 5pm and headed to town.

on the way there, there's suddenly sharp pain in my stomach. i felt ill after that and kept quite quiet after that. and oh yah! there's this woman i got damn pissed at. somehow, we ended up at taka's coffee bean, and i'm the only guy at that time and the girls are having girls talk. so i decided to go to the toilet and look around. so i stood up, and accidentaly hit the woman's bag. i of cuz immediately apologise as it's my fault that i'm careless, and that woman gave me a sickening face after i apologise. i got damn pissed off at that and walked away. i mean, u can reprimand me for being careless. i wouldn't mind. but why give me tat face?!?!?!? after awhile, carys decided to go home and i sent her home. after hearing what she said made me felt better abt that incident. and i got less pissed? LOL.

today

spent time with carys in the afternoon. and off to syc at 6pm for my friendship zone meeting rehearsal. and i've to admit, it's not easy being an mc. alot of stuff have to be amended. and i'm doing it all alone, cuz my co-host carine wasn't here. STRESS!!! all the pressure the leaders are putting on me. audience giving tons and tons of comment, 'willie! u should not do this' , 'willie! u shouldn't do that' ARGH!!!

hope the mc thingy will turn out well in the end .

cya =)

2007-04-04T03:02:00.000+08:00

well well well. it's 3am in the morning and i can't get to sleep. LOL.

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR :D

haha. that's random. but tat's juz what i feel like saying this moment. haha.

alrite. time to go and try to sleep. think i'm making a lame post bah =X

cya~~~~

2007-03-25T12:17:00.000+08:00

well. guess i haven been blogging for days. lazy i guess. and having so much things to do :P

haha. anyways. today is post chingay celebration. lots of event are prepared for our participants. hard work and efforts are put in. hope that all of them will enjoy it :D

on another note, preparing for my sub paper on tuesday. wish me luck everyone :D

i'm in love with that cool thing :P

wil-

2007-03-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CARYS!! :D

well, carys's birthday party went quite well i guess. everyone was having fun and the food's great(well, kinda :P) anyways, halfway through the party, wasn't feeling really good cuz of my exam results, friends are like msg-ing me asking me my result(which i haven got to know it then) and telling me that they have pass all their's, and i somehow dun feel really great, cuz i knew i'll do quite badly. but well, it's carys birthday, why get upset? :P haha, so got better after awhile.

HAHA, and they threw poor carys into the pool, and i got held back trying to stop them. haha, cuz i didn't really wanna see her drenched cuz she's still sick, but well, everyone's having fun, and i'm sure she does too. so still alrite bah =X

actually still quite alot to say, but lazy lah. haha, i'm tired and i wanna go sleep now. but, in short, her birthday bbq went well, and i'm sure everyone's there is happy. so am i :D

cya~~~

2007-03-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. but i can't get to sleep. cuz i'm feeling happy :D

know why?

becoz, i'm juz HAPPY!!

:D:D:D

2007-02-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

in the mist of the night...mugging for my major exam(edvckt) the following morning...i looked upon the card that all my participants in group A wrote and gave me...and i teared...but i'm proud to say tat i did :)

thanks for everything guys...i love you all...

2007-02-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

well...juz came back not long ago from ton-ing with the chingay peeps...it's fun! :)

hahaz...i met them at 10+ pm at PA 1st...then they went to eat...and i didn't cuz i've juz eaten dinner at chinatown not long ago with my family...hahaz...anyways...after tat...we headed to the cathay for out movie, the epic movie...

hahaz...alrite...the movie's kinda lame...as in the plot's and story are kinda weird...but well...it's not called epic for nothing rite? LOL...i did have a good laugh though...hahaz...movie ended at 1+ am...and penny suggested going to play pool...but however...we can't find a place where we could play...so decided to go to melvin's house instead...then penny, juay kai, jih yang, xue yun and gina decided to make a move 1st...hahaz...then bryant and I suddenly decide to have a drink...volka to be exact...and melvin told us we could have it free at his house...we juz have to buy the soft drinks to mix it...LOL...

bla bla bla...after tat...we reached melvin's house and slack at his room...lol...played some pokers for awhile...after that...i realise the other's was like something and i'm the only one doing nothing...so i went to drink the volka...well...i'm one who doesn't really drink...but i've juz feel like doing tat at the moment...and i did something silly...i drank 4 cups of volka(+ sprite) at one glup...and after tat...i knew i'm drunk...i cannot walk straight and i felt damn hot in my body...melvin they all saw that and immediately ask me if i'm alrite...which i'm not...and i suddenly felt very upset...so i made a excuse and went out to the living room alone...for tat 5 mins...i felt damn uncomforable and sad...and i dropped a tear or two...i dunno why also...but i felt a little better after that and went back in to join them...where melvin , jessica , stella and steph are having a talk...so i joined them in talking...and we really had a good talk...but i'm still feeling unwell from the volka i've took and was having splitting headaches...hahaz...and we chatted until like 7am and finally decide to catch some sleep for like 1hr+? ...lol...after i woke up...at like 9am...i've got the hangovers ...and i really felt unwell...sick to be exact...that's when i've regretted on drinking so excessively the previous nite...lesson learnt! :)

anyways...melvin's mother bought us breakfast and even gave us an ang pow!! WOW...hahaz...thanks ya.. :) after that...we all went home by mrt...and i follow stella to toa payoh where i took bus 59 home...on the journey home...i felt the headaches again and decide to sleep...and when i woke up...i realise i've miss my house bus stop!!...lol...i immediately alight and change bus...hahaz...this cost me 30mins... =X...

reached home...and went to bath etc...and came online to post this...hahaz...i'm still feeling headaches and i think i've got fever too...my forehead's kinda hot...maybe it's the after effect of the voldka...hahaz...anyways...reunion dinner tonight...everyone enjoy!! :)

cya...

2007-02-15T03:01:00.000+08:00

well...valentine's over...i'm not sure whether it's consider good anot...but it's still good in a way that it's better than last year's... :)

hope you like the flowers...it's like nothing much...but well...it's still a form of appreciation from me to ya...although i think i gave it to you in a weird way??...lol...

well guys...spread the love around...cya... :D

2007-02-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

since i've nothing to do now...might as well post something...hahaz...

alrite...chingay's full dress rehearsal was over ytd...i think i did generally well...i did what i promised myself to do and my group was alrite...having laughters and stuff...but towards the end...something cropped up again...i'm feeling damn bad over it lah...cuz it indirectly started becoz of me...and the whole group got demoralise...i really feel like tear-ing for that 5mins...i've to fight very hard to stop that...and luckily i did...cuz jessica broke down and i'm left alone to bring up the whole group...and well...although i'm feeling damn bad myself...i still manage to bring my group back up and i'm feeling good abt it...and it make me feel better... :)

and today...i've early reunion dinner with my mother side's family today...and my uncle brought back his girlfriend!!...lol...i was quite looking forward to it...but she didn't turn out to be very friendly...so i didn't talk to her much...hahaz...but anyways...i ate quite alot at dinner and i'm still feeling a little bloated even till now... =X

i'm feeling damn sad now...i dunno why also...i juz feel so now... argh!!!

2007-02-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

well...since i've so time to spare before i sleep...let's blog...lol...

hmm...things aren't exactly going fine right now...firstly...school work...why can't i get good or even juz group members that will do their stuff?...what's the point of me doing 95% of the work and i've to share the credit with them?and the worse part is...they dun feel guilty abt it and felt they put in effort to do the project...although i didn't say anything...but PLZ...face it and admit the 2 of u did not basically do anything...

and i'm upset with my quiz marks i guess...i really studied for it...but i didn't really scored tat well...especially maths...i even went to the extent of asking for help...which i wun in the past...so tat i can understand and do well...but my mind juz went into a blank state when i saw the paper...i got damn pissed at myself tat day...but well...since it's over...i've juz gotta work double hard for my main exams...

hardworking willie :D:D:D

moving on to chingay...performance is nearing...but problems still persist...it's not i dun wanna do anything abt it...i've tried...dun say tat i'm doing the wrong stuff when i feel that u did not do it right either...i'm not pin pointing anyone here...so dun get the wrong idea... :)

but however...i'm still having FUN in chingay...the peeps really make me feel all the hard work is worth it!! i love my group ..they ROCKS!! :P

hahaz...alrite...it seems i've snapped out of my depression period and move on in life...cheers for me!!...lol...stay happy everyone...especially U... =X

2007-01-29T02:00:00.000+08:00

my inner thoughts~~

i'm confused...i'm lost...tell me what u want me to do...and ur answer...dun leave me hanging there...

i'm juz gonna explode anytime now...

i may sound damn emo now...but it's really how i felt this very moment...

shucks...

2007-01-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

well...time flies ...it's wednesday now already...

hmm...have been feeling stressed recently...and i'm getting damn troubled abt it...with all my projects and stuff...it has been never ending...i can finish one work now...and *poof*...another new one comes along...i'm getting sick of it...it's not that i wanna complain...but...can the school work juz decrease? even juz a little will do...i've been like living a dull life now...sch work all the way...i wanna break free from it...i lack sleep...i lack having fun with my friends...i miss basketball..i miss everything...and...i miss you...i dunno why...

hope things can get better...i'm waiting...waiting...and waiting...

smile =)

2007-01-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

i think alot of things are juz croping up for me now...and i dun think i handle things well...i've been doing wrong things at the wrong time...in terms of studies and etc...

anyways...i'm juz doing projects everytime since sunday till now...and i'm not getting enough sleep and rest...and worse of all...i can't do things that i wanted to do!!!... and there's still chingay ongoing...i'm going bonkers...and the feeling of being alone juz came back again...i hate it...

but well...i'm juz gonna act normal and hope that these bad times will go away...

hopefully...

2007-01-07T11:59:00.000+08:00

do you know how it felt when u feel that u basically screwed up ur life?

well...i do now... :(

2007-01-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

something to add on...i wanna thanks turtle YVONNE and VERNISE for being there for me when i'm down...thanks the both of u...shall see u on 21th jan...u all comfirm meeting rite?...dun last meeting cancel hor...LOL...

2007-01-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

welcome year 2007!!!

it's great to have come to a new year...but looking back at 2006...it's not bad if i had stayed on in 2006... :P

basically...i've undergone lot's of up's and down's this year...the happy moments being the truely happy one's...while the sad moments really juz broke me down...

let's juz start with sad moments 1st i guess...i guess year 06' was the 1st year that i've got so stressed over problems that i cried...trust me when i said it's really tat serious...cuz i'm a person who doesn't even cry...problems are juz falling one by one on me that time till the extent that i got depressed at a period of time...however...someone did pulled me out of this mess in time...i'm not gonna say who she is...maybe she doesn't even knew...but i'm really appreciate what she has done...without her...who knows what will happen to me now...thanks... :)

alrite...on a lighter note...there'll still happy moments that really perk up my life...firstly...going into TP and meeting a new bunch of friends...although we still aren't really tat close...but i never failed to laugh when i'm with them...they'll really a great bunch of peeps... :D ...moving on...SK concert...this truely brings true happiness to my life...from 'strangers' who are supposely from the same kindergarden in the past...we turned into friends that will be there for one another...it's a bond that i'm really proud of...i mean...how many of you still keep in touch with ur kindergarden friends huh?...lol...lastly...chingay!!! ...lol...this event brought me lot's of experience that changed my life...i'm a trainer for my 1st ever chingay!! imagine that...i still cannot believe it sometimes till now ... :P ...but...nevertheless...i've really 'grown' up through chingay...things that i've never done before...and dun dare to do...i've done it...it's unbelieveable!!!...lol...

on a last note...i juz wanna say...i'm in love with 'you'...u know who you are...i juz wanna say i truely meant what i said...every single word and action i've said/done...and i juz wanna say...stay happy and remember i'll alway be here for whatever you'll be doing... :)

well...i know i'm kinda lazy not to blog in details...but at least...i blogged right...hahaz...so dun complain peeps... :P

yah...before i stoppped...i went to countdown with carys, qi sheng , marcus , penny , etc(eh...lazy to type it all out :P) after our performance last nite...we went to esplanade and it's really damn crowded...LOL...squeezing and squeezing and squeezing...LOL...but it's still worth it after seeing the wonderful firework display...hahaz...

alrite...stop here already...cya peeps :D

2006-12-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

well...i'm worried...

chingay...studies... etc... all problems are popping up now...how to solve?? someone juz tell me...

i need a 'superwoman' who would help me in everything.. :P